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Sunday, 19 April 2009

  • The Result Is Out.

    John: So you went for your company's medical check up?
    Me: No...I went to see a doctor to get a letter for an ultrasound scan 'cos there was a lump...
    John: So the result is out?
    Me: No, I''m going to get a scan on 27th. Not yet.
    John: So the result is out?
    Me: (finally understood what he meant) Oh yes! It is out and it says I'm perfectly healthy! Amen!

    I bind fibroendenoma in Jesus name!

Thursday, 09 April 2009

  • Passing On Logic

    Have you been upset or angry with someone lately?

    Ever find yourself refusing to give in to someone over a particular issue? Or have you been suppressing what you have in your heart?

    This evening, as I talked to Tricia Darling over MSN, she brought up an interesting logic that all of us have definitely come across before...it's none other than the passing on logic.

    What's this logic about you might think?

    If ever you find yourself in any of the situations that I mentioned earlier or similar ones, this logic will come in handy one way or another.

    If, for instance, you like someone very much, but for fear of the 10,000 over ways of rejections that may arise, you decide to just suppress your feelings and hope and pray that one day, this person that you like very much, will know how you feel.

    When one applies the passing on logic, one puts himself in the scenario that he is left with, say, a month's life on this Earth...so there will no longer be the fear of rejection or whatever negative consequences since there's nothing more dejecting than facing death itself.

    Well, honestly, if having one month's life on Earth is a fact than a logic we apply, I truly think that this theory holds true. BUT, knowing that it is a just a "what-if" that we apply (occasionally when the situation is in favour of us), we will still tend to be very reserved when expressing ourselves.

    Like, I think I'm really into this person right now and 99% of myself wants to take back whatever I've told him about not seeing him anymore. However, for that 1% of me that doesn't want to revert the situation, because I know the "passing on" theory is only a logic rather than a fact, I am still suppressing myself...with much struggle.

    And for certain times when I quarreled with my family members, I find it so hard to just apologise. It's like the closet you are to someone, the hardest it is to apologise (even though you are not at fault, which many always choose to believe), and to show that you are indeed vulnerable.

    I can't emphasis how important this is but I think many times, we are too guarded of the people around us and the consequences that may arise after every of our actions. Time after time, we build a stronghold of tower around us, cutting ourselves from others so that we won't get hurt, again. Sometimes, I wish I can just learn to go with the flow and not worry too much...yet that always mean losing control and going by faith...and trusting God.

    Pride, consequences, vulnerabilitiy, uncertainty are some factors that I always consider before applying the passing on logic to my personal circumstances. And when the scenario doesn't favours me, I tend to skip this logic and everything remains as it is. Deep down my heart, wanting a different turn out, bashing myself for not being courageous, wondering forever the things that might happen if I did this or that...

    Honestly, I really miss the 4/10 V and many other things that I, for now, prefer to just lie low.

    Is God out there sniggering at her silly girl?


Monday, 06 April 2009

  • Certified Tai-Tai, are you?

    1. Has no driving license as she is to be driven around by chauffeur

    2. Apartment viewing (not window shopping, mind you!)

    3. Goes "hmmmmmm...."(adds a note of skepticism) instead of "wow" when she gets impressed

    4. Owns shopping malls like Orchard Ion

    That's what Tricia, Eileen and myself thought of so far... to add on.

    Our next mission is to fulfill point 2! yay!

    On a more random update:
    Work is getting crazy.
    I'm going China again in June.
    I miss the forbidden V.

    Verdict: I need God.

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    • Name: Princess Camellia
    • Country: Singapore
    • Metro: Singapore
    • Birthday: 6/11/1984
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 11/21/2003

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